I never believed in the 'friendship' concept.
Whenever someone
calls me their best friend I cringe away. Mostly because I keep wondering on
how much they’ve truly known me.
Everybody just
knows me as the happy, easy-going girl, the one who always takes the wise
decisions, the one we always go to when we need to get a moral boost.
Everyone feels
they know me.
Everybody talks to me because I somehow manage to make them feel
good about themselves.
Or perhaps everyone believes I'm their friend because I am nice to
them.
But nobody knows
me. Not entirely. How can they possibly know me when I have not even met the
whole of myself? Unless I have! *smirks*
I have been
suffocating with the subjects I chose to do.
I don't relate to them. I am doing them just because I wanted to
make others happy. and yes that's me doing that- I the person who always
beckons others to listen to their hearts and not society.
Yes, I'm pathetic,
worthy of your pity perhaps but I know what it's like to live the life I live,
to live a life where I still doubt if I'm me parents' own kid, to live a life
that is not the one I wanted, to be surrounded by adults I never want to grow
into.
To have 'friends' who think they know me.