04/11 , 6:16pm
The tragedy of a young person dying because of overwhelming hopelessness or frustration is devastating to family, friends, and community. Parents, siblings, classmates, coaches, and neighbors are left wondering if they could have done something to prevent that young person from turning to suicide.
#Fact: "Teen suicide is a growing health concern. It is the third-leading cause of death for young people ages 15 to 24."
Me
Interesting.
Do you believe in
life?
·
NIk
Whuuut?! Nope.
Tried suicide twice.
No success xD
·
Me
Even more interesting.
You actually did?
I used to think
about suicide often.
Two years ago.
·
NIk
Ohhhhh
Me
Then I dropped the idea when I started to believe in life and the
possibility of my grander existence.
I started to love
myself.
How about you?
NIk
Duuh
Nope..I have not
found the meaning of life yet.
Me
I never said that one has to look for the meaning of life.
I said one ought to
believe in life.
Moreover, life has
no purpose or meaning.
Life has the
purpose that you, YOU give it.
And that. You don't
discover it.
You don't look for
it or find it.
NIk
Well, not willing to find it.
Me
CREATE
Not find!
In creation lies
love.
Or in love lies
creation.
I told you, love
makes life live.
I was pushed to
think about it because I was convinced that I was leading my own life rather than the one prescribed by others.
I was totally convinced.
...
Why have you been
thinking about it? Why suicide?
NIk
Because of pain.
Me
Pain is self-inflicted.
· Always.
Even the physical
one. So says neuroscience.
What about this:
" just do what pleases you and spread the happiness "
Life is useless.
Read otherwise it could mean, Life is use less.
Give more. Of love,
happiness and well wishes.
NIk
YOu spread the happiness, I gave almost all
of my time for others.
Pretty stupid from
my behalf.
Me
Even I used to
think that constantly giving is harmful. I'm still here actually.
I feel exploited at
times Very much taken for granted.
Seen just as the
moral booster, the helper and the one everybody can rely on.
It started to make
sick. Every now and then.
I feel drained out at times. Like I have been robbed of all my love.
·
Like I have taken myself and divided myself into pieces, that really no
one cares about.
NIk
Do not expect anything.. just give it all out and do not expect anything..
You'll feel better
really soon.
Me
I know. I truly have stopped expecting things.
But people just
take you for granted.
Me
I sometimes get that
feeling too. But always remember that people who love you most only want you to
do what you feel best. And taking time for yourself shouldn't be something you
have to apologize for, or provide an explanation for. Though inexperienced and
still young I've come to realise that even though you might feel you have been
losing yourself while helping others, you'll always gain, in a way or another.
Maybe not immediately, you'll realise that it wasn't a lost cause
Listen, all I know is that I'm always going to put up the walls and go
back to my nutshell whenever I feel drained out. To replenish myself.
But I will also
always, and always..
Fill myself with love
and send it to the world.
How they treat me
is their path. How I react is mine..
11/29, 9:12pm
Me
That's all I know.